When I first joined the site, I spent a lot of time reading the articles and blogs, and I read The Spark (I highly recommend it). I needed to figure out how to do this. It may sound simple to someone who has never tried to lose weight, you just eat less and move more, but to anyone who has lost weight, you know there is more to it than that. I had lost weight before, but I could never seem to keep it off, and keep going and lose more than 20-30 pounds. Finally, I learned that this is not about perfection, whether in exercise or in eating. It's not about starving yourself and punishing yourself or going on some diet that is not sustainable long term. It's not even about the amount of pounds you lose or what size you wear. It's about finding balance in your life. It's about being healthy and figuring out how to make changes that simply become the way you live.
For me I started out just wanting to lose some weight so I could be healthier. Worrying about my health was something I did a lot, and I did not want my kids to grow up with a Mom who couldn't do things. I didn't want to die before my time, like so many people in my family did.
|325 pounds vs 217 lbs. I filled out the 3x sweatshirt a little over 2 years ago.|
In the beginning, I had no idea how long it would take me to lose weight. I decided that no matter how long it took, I would never stop working toward being healthy, and I would never give up.
|325 lbs vs. 193 lbs|
- In 2 years I've gone from 325 pounds to my current weight of 193 pounds. That is 132 pounds lost.
- At 31, I now weigh less than I have my entire adult life.
- At my heaviest, I wore a size 28 jeans and 3 and 4x shirts. Now I wear a 14/16 and size L or XL shirts.
- Walking a mile wore me out back then, and now I've run several 5ks, an 8k and a 10k!
- I have become a runner, and what is even more shocking is that I actually like running and want to do it, even though it's hard. Before, I thought people who ran must be crazy and only imagined I'd run if I were being chased.
- When I first started working out I could only do a few "girl" push ups. Now I can do "man" push ups. :)
- I could only do a couple jumping jacks because I literally felt like my ankles would break. Now, I can do more than 50 and am barely out of breath.
- I used to feel insecure everywhere I went, and now I don't worry all the time that I don't fit in or that people are making fun of me.
- When I want to do something, I don't immediately wonder if my size will keep me from doing it.
- I am able to get so much more done without feeling so tired. Most days I have an abundance of energy.
- I have confidence in myself that I've never had.
- Being fit is the best feeling! I love that I can do so much more and that I am always improving.
- Finally feeling in control over my health is a wonderful feeling. It feels awesome to feed myself healthy food and give my body what it needs in regards to food, fitness and rest.
- Hearing others say they are proud of me or that they are inspired by me makes me want to never give up on myself. If I can help anyone, that makes me feel so good.
|Me running into the finish at The Shamrock 5k on 3-17-12. 33:50|
|Me a couple days before the 10k (1:07:08) 195 lbs|
If you are just starting out and feeling like this is impossible, just know you can do it. So much of this is a mental game, and you've got to learn to tell that negative voice in your head to shut up. The only one who can do this is you. You have all the control in this. Small steps over time add up to big changes. Be patient, be consistent and never give up, and you'll be amazed at what you are capable of doing. Most importantly, do this for you. Yes, I did this for my kids and my husband, but more importantly, I did it for me. If you live your life doing things only to please others, you lose yourself. You have to want this for you. Losing weight will not make someone love you more or make people like you. It will not make your life perfect, and for me it's brought about many realizations about myself. It will, however, change you. It will make you realize your potential. It will make you feel proud and strong and worthy of love (which I didn't, and that was part of why I gained weight), so that others will really see you. You'll really see and know yourself.
|Jeff and I at the Railroad 5k 4-21-12....I only weigh 3 more pounds than him now! :)|
"Whether you think you can or you can't, you are usually right." Henry Ford
"It's never too late to be who you might have been." George Eliot
"Courage does not always roar. Sometimes it is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow." Maryanne Radanbacher
"I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better." Maya Angelou
To everyone who has encouraged me along the way, THANK YOU! Whether it's been exercising with me, telling me I look better, or just telling me I'm doing a great job, I appreciate the support more than you know. This is hard, and it can't be done without support.